Sexual Tension

Sexual Tension
And Stop Right There!

That Was Appalling!

Start Again....

Lights, Camera, ACTION!

I'm starting my life over again. It was getting too messy; too many problems. So here I am starting again. Trying to take things back to before all went wrong.
What was my life like though before it all went wrong?

Make a list:
-I had a best friend in another school up on the hill,
-I had a geeky boyfriend,
-And my life didn't have half the problems I have today such as crazy people making up rumours so other crazy people believe them etc...
+ I didn't know my neighbour.

Today:
-Well I've still got my friend in the school on the hill,
-I haven't got a geeky boyfriend anymore but I seem to fancy a geek :/
-Can't do much about the problems!
-I know my neighbour and he really gets to me!! :@ grrrrr

Well maybe I should try and forget all the bad things and only live for the good bits! =) like at the cinema last night! Saw FAME, was good but like my life, could be better! But when my mate came and told me why we can't go to the Moulin on Saturday night it made me laugh out loud! PMSL! I couldn't breathe it was so hilarious but mean. Awww. That guy is a dick and deserved to go through the window shame he just wasn't naked! :E I think that would of made my day if I heard he got chucked through the window naked and had to get across Civray without any clothes on =) not that it would be nice to see, he is really ugly especially his big nose(!!!), even if he is a trainee fireman :L

For once I had entirely planned out my holidays; I had planned to go out every day but then it all crumbles! Typical! And I don't get my guitar till the 12th or 13th of November! I wanted it so I could learn during the holidays! And since I won't be around much during the Christmas holidays, when will I have time???

Did I say I fancy a geek? I don't know what's wrong with me but I just can't stop thinking about him. Why do I fancy him? Surely it can't be because he's so intelligent, nice, funny... :S he makes me laugh sooo much! And there's the other guy, I think I'm falling in love with him too but me and him, it will never work :(

I'll never be a model :( because I am so small! Dreams always get crushed!

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# Posted on Wednesday, 28 October 2009 at 5:22 AM

Edited on Wednesday, 28 October 2009 at 5:39 AM

Worries...

Worries...
I know I said that I was never going to write about him again but I just can't stop...

Yes I still miss him but as a friend... I can't forget my best friends over night!!

Do I still love him? I honestly don't know!

I'm scared for him, I know I shouldn't be but I am. I think he's ill! He must be, he's so thin and he's hiding something from us but we can't put our finger on it. When he told me it was over because when I find out what he had done I wouldn't want him anymore I thought it had something to do with what happened at college. But thinking about it now and from what she told me, I think I was wrong! He is hiding something and it is now becoming stressful!

I'm over the moon that I have got my best friend back! I missed her so much! It's like a weight off my shoulders. I nearly let it all go, I nearly let her walk off and I wanted never to talk to her again but she means so much to me that I just couldn't let her go and pretend that she never existed! I just want her to know how much I love her and that I'll always be there for her like the times she has been there for me too! =)

Maybe I don't fancy my geek, he's really geeky :| and strange... unless he is ready for Halloween :S

I finally changed my facebook profile picture! I'm glad I did because it was getting on my nerves... preview it
<------------- I really want to be a model but i#m not slim or tall enough! I know i have already said it but it want it so badly!
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# Posted on Thursday, 29 October 2009 at 5:37 PM

Edited on Thursday, 29 October 2009 at 5:55 PM

Major Freak Out!

Major Freak Out!
So I fancied my geek. I asked his sister for his msn even though he claims he never goes on msn apart from every time I go he's on too. Anyway as far as geeks go, he always talks about homework or something intelligent like last night he was telling me facts about ancient Egypt even though I do know a fair bit but since he wants to be an archaeologist he seems to know a bit more... History lessons at 10:30PM are not my kind of thing so how he managed to get me in a history mood, god knows... must have done some kind of science geek magic on me! :O I went on again this evening before dinner and he asked me about the book we have read in French and he was shocked when I said had read the whole book -'Therese Raquin by Emile Zola'- in less than a day though then he shocked me when he started talking about 'normal' subjects and asked me about England. So when I came back online tonight after I had my shower and called my dad, he asked me about how the book ends since it is such a boring book and doesn't really want to read it all –good luck to anyone who has to read it!- and then he randomly asks me out... I was thinking What? No way? This wasn't what I expected! Scary! I panicked because I wasn't expecting it at all :S but I said yes I will go out with him =) then I fainted nearly in the stairs- again.

OMG, it's not fair!!! It's a nightmare!! I just been on my cousins facebook profile and he's smaller than his younger brother, like all my other cousins the youngest is taller than the oldest but I don't want to be smaller than my sister!! It's not fair!!! I'm only 169.5cm as well!

I'm getting a migraine now...
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# Posted on Friday, 30 October 2009 at 4:37 PM

Edited on Sunday, 15 November 2009 at 9:16 AM

Pourquoi est ce qu'on parle toujours des choses obscènes en physique?

Pourquoi est ce qu’on parle toujours des choses obscènes en physique?
So here I am again, on my blog! I haven't been on much because I went back to lycee. And I've been decorating!

Went back to lycee on Wednesday and since we have had 5 and half hours of chemistry!!! But it wasn't as bad as I expected!!


I'm on a 'petit nuage' at the moment and I can't really write a lot since my mind is somewhere so far away! Still at lycee probably where I left myself last night! I had a great moment with Valentin outside the lycee just the two of us, even if it was absolutely FREEZING COLD! But I didn't care! Oh well I'm too busy talking to him on msn right now! TTFN!
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# Posted on Saturday, 07 November 2009 at 11:44 AM

Edited on Sunday, 15 November 2009 at 9:09 AM

Lately...

Lately...
It's just amazing.

Though can't people just keep out of it? It's between me and him, nobody else. Why do people keep saying 'she's too gorgeous for him, she should dump him for somebody better looking!'? Love isn't just about looks. I love him for who he is. This sounds very familiar but I don't judge people just by the way they look. Real people have more to them than just the outer image. I know there's a lot of people who look fabulous but that's all there is to them; they've got no personality apart from maybe a crap one.

Maybe I love him because he's smart and funny... and an amazing kisser.

But I guess some people are too dim to understand. I know it shouldn't bother me but it does.

I didn't manage to sell many chocolates... oh well too bad; we might have to pay to go to the dancing with a much cheesed teacher unless the rest of the team managed to sell some!

People are being right twits at the moment!! There's that Kay Dee bitch (isn't there some slutty bitch on Scooby doo called Kay Dee?) who thinks that there's something going on between me and James though HELLO? I'm with Valentin!! :S and then there's Matt Elsom from Hawkes Farm who's a right dickhead thinking that James only wants to come see me for one reason though he's damn wrong and he should stop making up rumours. It makes me laugh thinking that he thinks he's going to talk to me on msn... he's got a wrong address! HA! Suck on that one loser!

But lately I've had a lot of luck; I've got amazing friends from the past who really make me laugh. I love you guys!! I know I haven't spoken to Sam for over 10 years but he's still awesome and James well, he's just James =)

I can't believe we're going to Greece with the lycee! It's going to be great! I can't wait already!! Though it scares me when the history teacher told us and people asked her 'where is Greece?'! We're in France... it's not that far away!! :S and apparently we'll be able to practice our English there... :S I won't have to, I am English =) but OMG I was sitting observing the world map and I realised that Siberia is in ASIA :S I have always thought it was next to Alaska in AMERICA! Random or what??
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# Posted on Sunday, 15 November 2009 at 8:45 AM

I wanted to...

I wanted to...
I wanted to jump in front of a bus but I remembered what Sam told me and I found the will to want to stay alive...
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# Posted on Monday, 16 November 2009 at 1:09 PM

SPOILER!!

SPOILER!!
Why does it only ever happen to me?
Why is it always me who gets dumped?
Why is it always me who gets hurt?
Why did he trail it on for days that felt like years?

But somewhere in me, I'm relieved. I don't think I could have carried on how we were going without a major bust up! Call me crazy but I don't think I'm entirely over Simon. Jess is right. I shouldn't even talk about him!

I went to see new moon as soon as it came out on Wednesday 18th November!! It was good but it was a huge disappointment! Edward looked really ugly this time and Bella looked drugged and really old even before being depressed! Mike looked green and fat... and I preferred Jacob with all his hair than without! The Cullens looked really posh and unnatural even if they are mega rich vampires! The ending don't get me started on it! I can't believe they go into the third book! I can't believe they just cut it so badly! I can't believe the last thing Jacob does is cry in his wolf form and run off after Bella and Edward being so harsh! I can't believe they kept putting in moments where Jacob nearly kisses Bella... for crying out loud, KISS HER ALREADY! And I thought Emily would be a bit different! But it was good the way they integrated most elements of the book and Victoria (loving her hair!!). The wolves were good too but the Edward getting out the car was very cliché and Zac Efron-ish! The soundtrack was a bit of a letdown too after the first one being so good but there were some brilliant songs!

I hate her!
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# Posted on Thursday, 19 November 2009 at 2:56 PM

Edited on Thursday, 19 November 2009 at 3:17 PM